Friday, October 29, 2010

How do you...?

How do you tell someone that you hardly talk to that you still care about them, even though they are 300 miles away?

I have always found it hard to let people know I still care for them. I just can never find the right words, so I end up keeping it to myself and end up seeming like a jerk. But I'm not. I just don't know what to say.

I have so many people in my life that I care deeply about, but they have no idea. I am so awkward when it comes to expressing feelings and emotions to people. By myself, oh I'm great at it. But when they are standing there in front of me, I am terrible at it. I just don't get what the problem is.

Like one of my friends just recently broke up with her boyfriend and I wish I could be there for her, but I have no idea how to tell her that I care and wish the best for her. I haven't talked to her in about six months or so. But I miss her. I miss a lot of my friends that I haven't kept in contact with. I want to invite them to my wedding, but I don't even know if they will come. After high school, we all went in separate directions and kind of grew apart but when we get back together it's like nothing changed. And I love that about them.

I just wish I could tell them.

Thursday, October 28, 2010


Why does life get so hectic that it always seems like you never have time for the things you enjoy?

My job keeps me busy, and my commute takes an extra hour and a half out of my day. I come home, cook dinner, clean up, then collapse on the couch, all my energy drained.

I have been saving my time on the weekends to do the things I love and the thing I want to try. But I never seem to get as much done as I'd like. Time just slips away.

Not much I can do, but I'm working towards finding more time and more energy.

One option is to work 10 hours days and then have 3 day weekends every weekend, but like my friend Fauna said, I will be spending the weekend catching up on all the stuff I should have done during the week. And I don't want to do that.

Second option is to go back to 8 hour days, never have any 3 day weekends, burn myself out, but have more time to do the things I like to do.

Third is to keep trucking on, working 9 hour days but having every other Friday off, which gives me a day to myself to paint, take pictures, explore, cook, eat, do crafts.

How do you manage your time and fit in the stuff you love to do?

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